So many times I've imagined myself committing suicide, sometimes because of depression and sometimes just for the fun of it. Whatever it was, it was just a thought that for sure wasn't gonna happen. I just can't imagine the world without me :P and I don't wanna go to hell that easy! If I am to go to hell, I guess I will have to earn that. Anyway, before two days I had these suicidal thoughts again and I think it was just funny thoughts. So I thought how would a poet gonna write his suicide note? In a poem of course!
Here is what I came up with. I called it "A Suicide Note".
Here to whom it may concern
I am sorry but nothing more that I can do
I've decided to end my life today
And I only have this to say to you
It's not because I can't live without you
It's just that I don't love myself anymore
And it doesn't matter that I'll be going to hell
'Cause I've tasted your hell once before
Now I'm drowning and it's getting harder to breathe
Even in that moment I can't stop thinking of you
It won't be long until I reach the very deep
So god help me to make it through
So before that I gasp my very last breath
And the color of my body turns to blue
Pray for my soul to be taken away with ease
And I'll be waiting until your time is due
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
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ouch, et3awwir el galb. i liked it.
i wrote my will once, actually it was a few months back but not suicidal of course :p showed it to mom hoping she'd understand. once she read the first few lines and realized what i was talking about hoping she'd feel sorry for me and hug me :p she just gave me back the paper saying :" sheno hatha! wakhray 3anni!" that's when i felt suicidal! :p
thanx for passing by and reading the poem ..o salamat galbich :)
sorry that ur mom didn’t buy the will trick :p
but I am interested in what u have written in ur will? Share with us, maybe it will give me some ideas for my next dark poem :p
No, thank you for posting your dark poem :p
Mine wasn’t a poem. I’m not sure if I still have it or not. Will see.
Vintage:
About suicide and hell .. I just said earn it cos I wanted to sound funny :p
I guess we all ask “why god, why r u doing this is to me?” when things go wrong or when we lose someone near but what makes us different than those who commit suicide and give up easily on life is FAITH .. we have faith in god and we believe that one day we will get repaid by him. So have faith and inshallah u will be happy and sooner or later u will get ur masters :)
Flamingoliya:
U r more that welcome :p
I know it was not a poem .. u just post it and I will TRY to make it a poem :p
Aquamarine:
First of all thanx for reading and commenting :)
I don’t wanna commit suicide! In the post I said thinking of it .. I said that I think of it when I am depressed or think of it cos it is fun to think of it not fun to commit it :p
Does it sound weird? :p
About the way of the suicide attempt, did u read the poem til the end? I said I am drowning, so el rawsha rock in Lebanon sounds like a nice place :p
That was in the poem .. but personally I prefer to swallow so many sleeping pills and die in my sleep cos I think I will feel less pain. Maybe I am wrong, maybe I will have this unbearable pain in my stomach before I die :p
Sorry about that guy.I don’t think I wanna be in the sister place, never! I hope that she does not see nightmares cos of that.
Kind of sounds like lyrics to a cliche Metallica song. You know, not the good stuff like on 'Master of Puppets', but the crappy stuff, like on the 'Black Album' and beyond...
Brachypelma:
Hey! Thanx buddy for reading and commenting :)
But since u r too eager to see me dead, why don’t u pay for all the expenses? :p
What if I crashed and survived? I don’t wanna live the rest of my life on a hospital bed!
My idea of suicide is much better than urs … I die in 1 piece and get buried in 1 piece :p
About el she3r, before 4 years I was totally not interested in it and I never imagined myself writing anything! Even reading it was out of the question, but then I don’t know what happened and I started writing, stopped for a while, and then I returned in 2004.
Anonymous:
The only songs I liked for Metallica were the songs on that album.
Thanx for commenting whomever u r :)
Farooha:
Thank u very much :)
And nothing has gotten into me, I am still normal and I don’t wanna kill myself. And no I don’t listen to Metallica or buy their albums. I just listen to their songs on the radio!!
Vintage,
Oh yeah I am not gonna do it :p
And yeah I remember that story too, it reminds me of myself in one of my previous lives when I sacrificed myself for the girl I love :p
But I found that this story way too much to digest, ok the breaks r not working why did he had to crash on a wall or something? Why didn’t he continue to drive till he reaches some sandy area and let the bike roll over in the sand? Both of them would have a good chance to survive, but I guess he wanted to be a legend and go in history books :p
Brachypelma:
Allah ysalmk
O yalla unleash the poetry beast inside u :p it seems that 3endk mawaheb bs hidden ;)
Vintage:
It is still romantic, maybe they were in a city with no sand around :p
and as for the helmet, maybe it was made from super materials :p
why does ur poem sound like Eminem?
oooooh guess what. Im starting to use my blog!..finally EH?
Hope! u r insulting me by saying it sounds like eminem!
i can accept it being compared to metallica but that rapper? i prefer to kill myself really than to be compared or have my poems compared to such person!
oh yeah? finally! i will check and see :D
loooooooool..im so sorry Hopeless, but Hope does not like to hear about suicide. Suicide to Hope is like the end of Hope, which means it is the end of me. Life with no hope, is no life. we live to hope and by just doing that, life is beautiful.
It's not because I can't live without you
It's just that I don't love myself anymore
And it doesn't matter that I'll be going to hell
'Cause I've tasted your hell once before
Now I'm drowning and it's getting harder to breathe
Even in that moment I can't stop thinking of you
It won't be long until I reach the very deep
So god help me to make it through
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Wonderful poem, and you chose the words creativly mashallah!
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